EPILOGUE Your Normal I wanted to be special. But I knew I couldn’t be. The answer to the sense of inconsistency that was stuck in my chest was so simple it was anticlimactic. Even though I hated being treated so special. Even though I was so happy to be normal for once. Before I even realized it, I wanted to be special to you, and for you to be special to me. But you wouldn’t let me get close to your heart for the longest time. Hey, honestly… I wish I could see you each and every day. I wish I could have a special seat saved for me next to you. That’s all I wished for. After losing my love and feeling so empty, it finally rolled around and came right back to me. But I don’t have to be precious about it and keep it locked up safe. If we could just walk side by side on the way home, if we could just chat together the whole time. If I could just say your name, and have you say mine…that would be more than enough for me. Everything I ever wanted was already in the palm of my hand. Because the form of “special” I wanted to be to you…wasn’t what’s actually special, after all. A certain special girl made me realize that, and it’s just as she said. The one I love…will be my number one. I’ll gently support him whenever he feels down, and I’ll console him whenever he feels defeated. I’ll listen carefully when his cheeks are wet with tears and tell him off when it looks like he’s going down the wrong path. And on those dark nights when he’s hunched up, hugging his knees…I’ll keep a tight hold of his hand. I’ll be by his side, gazing at him, letting him know that the moon is right here. —Because all I ever really wanted was to be your normal.
Chapter 96
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