Noah’s POV
"Ahh..." a soft moan leaves my mouth the moment I wake up.
I don’t immediately open my eyes, but I can already sense my surrounding. There’s the warmth of sunlight hitting my face. There’s the noise of people starting their day. And there’s a smell of coconut in the air.
I frown at the scent and it’s implications. Back at home in Winslow, we used to give those to omegas in heat or omegas on their first time.
The oil was made to help them and their partners enjoy the sex of a heat circle. I’ve never used it, since I’m a virgin, but I’ve helped omegas out of the heat room many time.
I turn my body so I lie comfortably on my stomach. But I let out a pained groan as my body signals to me that something is wrong.
There are pains in the wrong places of my body.
My thighs. My neck. My ass...my ass?
"Oh...my...goddess" I whisper in fear, sitting up to run my hands over my body. Fear turns into horror as I look down at myself.
I’m completely naked.
My left hand slips over my stomach, down my soft cock, and then between my legs, reaching for the hole at the back.
No. No. No.
I’m still wet with slick and coconut oil lube. Which means he did it. Elias Deus did it to me. And he did it without my consent.
I’m going to throw up.
Out of disgrace, I fall out of the bed, and my body hit the floor with a loud thud. I scramble to pick myself up, and when I do, my eyes meet dead brown eyes.
Elias Deus.
The alpha has been here all along.
He is sitting in that chair again. His legs are crossed, and a book is opened on his lap. I look around the room as I try to breathe through my panic.
I’m back in his bedroom, and I hate him. I hate him and I want to kill him for defiling me.
"You have to be the most self-unconscious person I’ve ever met" he says and flips the page of the book. His eyes are fixed on me, and although I heard what he said...I can’t process anything.
He took my virginity.
"It took you fourteen hours to wake up, five minutes to realize your location and another two to find me. Didn’t they teach you self-consciousness, beautiful?" Elias asks and I really can’t hold it back anymore.
"Are you happy you monster?" I ask through my clenched teeth and Elias lifts his chin, giving him a cold half-smile.
"Always" he says and the tears drop down my cheeks.
"That was my first time!" I yell and he snaps the book shut. His jaws tick but he doesn’t say anything, so I pick up a pillow and throw it at his head.
He doesn’t dodge it. He let it hit his face and then fall to the floor.
"You bastard! I saved it- I save my virginity as a gift for-" I stop talking when he suddenly gets up.
"Yes" Elias says and my heart jumps to my throat.
I was raised to be the modern royalty of my city, but this man, this man is raised to be the royalty that rules royalty.
My outburst dies a natural death as he takes calculated steps till he’s in front of me. He grabs my chin and force me to look at him.
"I touched you, I held your attention and saw how needy you can get beyond this...elegant mask" he says, holding my face hard enough that it hurts and I hold back my sobs.
"Do you remember, Noah? Do you remember everything?" he asks and I shake my head.
I don’t remember, but my mind is filling the gaps. It’s like just his touch, like the other time, pull something out of me.
Without my consent, my mind supplies a dirty image of his body pinning me down. My body craving it and...wait...what is wrong with me?
"Do you remember?" Elias asks again and I sob my answer.
"No" I say in a trembling voice, stiffening as his hand leave my chin and travel down to my neck.
"I saw you, like this. Vulnerable, on your knees...mine" he says, pressing his thumb into my pulse point and my lips part to draw in air, trying to do the duty of my nose.
I can’t breathe.
"You were so fucking beautiful, and then I held your neck tight" he suddenly grips my neck hard, pulling me up, so that my spine is straight even though I’m on my knees.
"And then I squeezed. I squeezed and squeeze until you passed out" he says and let me go.
I fall to the floor like a rag doll, gasping for air and refusing to lift my head to look at him.
The man who brought my home to ruin is the same man that ruined my body last night...and I can’t remember.
I hate myself more now because even though fear is running through my body...a sick part of me is nodding an eagerly to the alpha’s twisted attention.
Notice me.
I hate him.
"I did all that, Noah. I did all that but I didn’t take your virginity" Elias says and my head snaps up.
"W-what?" I stutter, wrapping a hand around my neck to ease the burning pain he just caused me.
I’m so stunned that even my omega has gone silent.
"I hate being forgotten, Noah" Elias says in a tone that makes his words feel...personal. He didn’t take my virginity...
"And when I fuck you, you will remember ever single detail" he adds.
Yet.
He didn’t take my virginity yet.
"When I fuck you..." he takes a step towards me.
"Every part of you will remember. Your eyes will remember, your nose will remember, your ears will remember, and your skin...your skin will never forget" he says before finally stepping away from me and shoving his hands into his pockets.
"W-why?" I ask.
My voice has been damaged by him.
"Why what?"
"Why didn’t you take what you want and get it over with, what use is there in a monster pretending to be human?" I spit at him and that half-smile returns.
"Wouldn’t you like to find out, Angel? Until then, behave. I don’t like correcting my possessions. And clean yourself up, breakfast will be ready in twenty minutes" Elias says and heads for the door.
"Twenty minutes Noah. And you have to be downstairs at that table as Mr Noah Deus" he opens the door and leave.
I don’t know which of my many problems to break from first.
Is it the fact that he didn’t force me as I expected? Is it the fact that something is wrong with my head some how? Is it the fact that I’m going to be at the dinner table with a family of murders? Or is the fact that he has taken my own name from me.
Noah Deus.