Shang Yang suppressed the rushing emotions, and asked with the tone of judging him: "What about this time?"
In the past few years, Jin Xu has come out from the haze of the last time, and through hard work and practice, he has achieved the soundness, breakthrough and renewal of himself from body to personality.
He is no longer the fledgling little policeman with a heart full of enthusiasm, and he will no longer be destroyed by fake and ugly things that are beyond his own power. He has been able to accept the fact that the light is not achieved overnight, and changing the world is destined to be long and tortuous This process is often accompanied by inner loneliness, frustration, grievance and embarrassment. Before fighting against fake ugliness, you must first overcome these inner noises.
No one is a superman, and there should be no superman in this world. The relentless pursuit of truth, goodness and beauty by ordinary people with mortal bodies is the real cornerstone of making the world a better place.
Shang Yang clearly understands this. Jin Xu's perseverance in justice is one of the most attractive qualities of Jin Xu after the reunion.
A few years ago, scum like Liu Weidong's escape from legal sanctions was the direct cause of Jin Xu's illness, but now Jin Xu should have taken a lot of light on this kind of thing, and the criminals got away with it? Well, keep an eye on it, and if you commit another crime, you will be caught again, and you will die to the end. This is Jin Xu's logic now.
"You said that this time is different from last time. I believe that you are not the same as before." Shang Yang said, "But you always tell me, what is the difference? The doctor said you have a heart disease, but you said you knew it yourself .You know, why don't you let me know? Do you have any secrets that you can't let me know?"
"I..." Jin Xu stared at Shang Yang, as if thinking about how to tell the truth.
On the contrary, Shang Yang was able to confirm that this person actually had a "secret". This knowledge made him feel cold for a moment. The last time he felt this way was during the Spring Festival. Because his father was admitted to the hospital, the two of them had to temporarily disconnect .
Jin Xu saw the change in his expression and said, "No matter what I say later, don't forget that I really love you."
Shang Yang never doubted this, and said coldly, "Oh."
Jin Xu: "..."
Shang Yang said: "I really want to understand that you don't want me to worry, but this is obviously not the case. You just deliberately hid something from me, not one, but many. If you are sick, don't tell me. Go to the doctor secretly. If it wasn’t for Chen Jing’s accident, you might already be secretly taking stable drugs. I don’t need to tell you the side effects of those drugs. You know better than me. Have you considered me? When what?"
Jin Xu said: "My wife."
Shang Yang said coldly: "The last person who treated his wife like this should have no wife."
Jin Xu: "..."
"I know you are used to being alone, and you are willing to take on and solve problems by yourself, and you are not used to explaining so much to others," Shang Yang said, "If I am no different from others in your heart, then don't say those words that coax me Now, you don’t love me, you can just find someone to say you love him, I just happen to be this person.”
Jin Xu frowned and said, "You...are you talking angry?"
Shang Yang retorted, "You know I'm talking angry? Do you know why a person would say angry words?"
Jin Xu: "..."
Shang Yang exhaled, and said in a restrained tone: "I'm angry, I'm so angry. If you're not sick, if you're healthy now, I really...will beat you to death right away."
Jin Xu was taken aback by his temperless tantrum, and with a gentle look on his face, he said, "Come on, let you hit me."
A passerby passed by and looked at the two of them wonderingly, not understanding what these two men were doing on the side of the road. They were staring at each other, hey, they are still a pair of handsome guys... Interesting.
Embarrassed by the look, Shang Yang turned sideways, facing the wall of roses, and turned his head when passers-by passed by, threatening Jin Xu in a low voice: "What should I say if I haven't made it up yet? Don't you want a wife? ?”
Jin Xu said: "I'm making it up, I'm making it up."
Shang Yang: "..."
"I'm going to tell you, you can hit me after listening, and I think I should too." Jin Xu said.
"I'll listen to it before I talk." Shang Yang said.
"Okay." Jin Xu put his hands in his trouser pockets, like a ruffian suddenly saddened, and said, "Actually, I'm a liar in love, and I lied to you for a long time."
Shang Yang: "...???"
Jin Xu said: "Three years ago, you and the squad leader went to see me in Baiyuan. I was very sick. Seeing you, it was like cold water dripping into hot oil, which woke me up. I felt really like a broken silver bottle. burst..."
Shang Yang stopped and said, "Say something useful."
"It's over," Jin Xu said, "I'm thinking about it, I can't just die like that, I have to get you."
Shang Yang gave him a boring look, let him experience it for himself, is there any need to talk about it? Is there anyone here who doesn't know?
But Jin Xu still continued this topic and said: "When I get better and my work is on the right track, I will start thinking about how to get you."
Shang Yang had no choice but to say: "How did you think about it?"
"The class monitor and other students in Beijing in our class provided me with a lot of reference materials. Of course, they were all unintentional. They don't know that I have no good intentions." Jin Xu said, "You haven't changed much from when you were in college. You are squeamish and love beauty. I like to be friends with lively and outgoing people, and I admire police colleagues with outstanding work ability, such as your father, who is insensitive but delicate, demanding a lot of details, slightly obsessed with cleanliness, slight perfectionism, and tends to be passive in interpersonal relationships."
Shang Yang: "..."
At this time, Jin Xu's expression showed a hint of shyness, and he said: "Originally, I planned to find you after going to Beijing to study, and chase you slowly. I didn't expect you to arrive in Baiyuan more than a month ago, so I could only bite the bullet Get in early. What you see is all fake. I pretended it. When I saw you, I panicked. I almost drove the car against the wall. My first thought was to run away. I didn’t dare to let you see me so quickly. , I didn’t shave properly that day, you are so well-mannered, if you don’t fascinate you at first sight, it’s even more useless later.”
Shang Yang: "..."
He remembered that day at the police station, when a rampaging police car drove into the yard, Jin Xu got out of the car and greeted him and Yuan Ding in a dignified and non-cold manner.
"Afterwards, I kept pretending. In Baiyuan, I pretended to go to Beijing." Jin Xu said, "I usually don't bother to talk. You don't like introverted people, you like to be lively, so I always pretend to be clever on purpose, ba ba In fact, every time I see you, I feel flustered, afraid that you will find out that I am a coward, and I pretend to be a coward in front of you all day long, so that I almost believe it myself. During the special training period of the national security, I couldn't see you , and I can’t make phone calls. I thought that the previous work might be wasted, and you won’t remember who I am after my training. On the day the training was over, the monitor asked me to eat roast lamb in a yurt, saying that you were there, waiting for me to go , you really ignored me, I thought to myself at that time, why is it so difficult to find a date? Why do you have to like you, forget it, I'm going to be promoted anyway, go back to work hard, and it won't affect me if I don't get a date Fight crime."
Shang Yang said speechlessly: "You..."
Jin Xu said: "I just thought about it for a while, you sit next to me, your body is more fragrant than roast lamb, and the back of your neck is covered with fine skin and tender meat, and it is still very white. If I don’t care about you, maybe I won’t be in the mood to work anymore, so I still have to get you.”
Shang Yang shut up again.
Jin Xu said: "Understood? I am this kind of person. From the very beginning, I have no good intentions. On the surface, I talk about life and cases with you seriously. I pretend to be capable and have a good personality. What I think in my heart is how to get rid of you quickly." Clothes. Later, you got along with me, and I also pretended. Before meeting you, I had to Baidu a few love poems and memorize them carefully. When I saw you, I could say some romantic words to deceive you. In fact, I don’t want to talk at all. We only meet each other for three or two days, and talking is a waste of time. It’s all just pretending to show you. I’m not interesting, boring, and lecherous. It’s not because I love working overtime and want to serve the people. I can’t do without working overtime, I’m so tired of working overtime, being dedicated to one’s job is the same as being smart and lively, these are all the persona I set up for myself, all to please you.”
Shang Yang's mood at this time is strange and delicate. Although Jin Xu used a self-explosive deception, to him, it was clearly a small thought in love. Not only did he not hate it, but also provided him with a review of his love experience new perspective.
He asked, "What... does this have to do with your illness?"
Jin Xu said: "Recently, you love me more and more. The more you love the way I pretend, the more anxious I am. I don't know if it's me you love. If so, what's the point of my pretending? If not , I might lose you when you see through it."
Shang Yang looked at him inexplicably, and didn't understand what it was. Are you jealous of yourself?
Jin Xu said: "I have dreamed that you left me several times. In the dream, it is often another me who loves me. Sometimes I beat him and snatch you back. Sometimes you become his wife. Once it was simply three people together."
Shang Yang said in embarrassment: "You are sick, what kind of ghost dream are you having? Outrageous."
"I'm just sick," Jin Xu said gloomily, "I can't control my wild thoughts even more when I'm sick, wife, I'm really tired."
Shang Yang explained to him: "I'm not saying you're sick, I'm saying you're abnormal... Forget it, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to accuse you. You keep talking, and then what?"
Jin Xu said: "I remember being sick a few years ago, and taking Limianine could help me slightly control my endless dreams. Before you came this time, I wanted to take this medicine like crazy for a few days, and I knew it was not suitable. This mentality is no different from being addicted to drugs. Dr. Chen Jing cured me a few years ago. I went to her because I wanted to hear her tell me again not to rely on drugs, but to rely on my own heart and the people around me. .”
The reason for the last illness was that the belief was trampled by the cold reality. This time, the reality is full of flowers and flowers, too rich and perfect like an illusion.
Over the years, he has walked through the mud and thorns, and he has come to this day with difficulty, and he has reaped the reward called love.
He regards it as a treasure, but he obviously hasn't dared to fully believe it yet, unexpectedly, got it?
Shang Yang said: "You are willing to tell me these things now because you are thinking about it again?"
Jin Xu said: "Yesterday you said that I was cool when I was in college, if we hadn't been in love, you would have regarded me as an idol. You didn't hate me back then."
"Of course not, do you hate me?" After being denied by Jin Xu, Shang Yang said, "I actually liked you at that time very much. It should not be like love, but I like you."
Jin Xu readily concluded: "So what you like is me, not me other than me."
Shang Yang said: "There is no you other than you. I don't fall in love with you because you can talk better than before and pretend to be flamboyant."
It is because he is as positive as before, always chasing after the light, and because of his talent and achievements in public security work, Shang Yang has to worship him, look up to him, and love him uncontrollably.
But Shang Yang also knew that he didn't understand.
"You think of yourself too badly, and you think me too stupidly." Shang Yang said, "Stop talking, I'm going to get angry again."
However, after Jin Xu made his words clear, his whole body suddenly became enlightened, and he said, "It should be, do you want to hit me? It's free, help yourself."
Shang Yang said with a stern face: "When you recover from your illness this time, we will settle this issue properly."
Jin Xu wanted to say that he felt he was well already, but he couldn't talk too much, or he might be scolded by Shang Yang, so he asked, "Will I lose my wife?"
Shang Yang was very depressed, and said: "You should first think about whether you will lose your job. If the provincial department knows that you are considered to be mentally ill, will they still let you be on the front line of the National Security Bureau?"
"I've thought about it," Jin Xu said calmly, "I will obey all arrangements."
Shang Yang was still angry in his heart, [-]% sad mixed with [-]% angry, but there was nothing he could do about the patient Jin Xu now.
They really love each other, they love each other as much as they love ideals and the world.
"Go back," Shang Yang decided to endure it for the time being, and said, "It's a bit sunburnt."
Jin Xu took out his mobile phone and opened the APP to call a car. He looked at Shang Yang with a very attractive and flattering look.
Shang Yang said: "Can you make only one character design?"
"Then I'll be your licking dog." Jin Xu said.
"No, let me be your licking dog and focus on licking you alone." Shang Yang joked, "I'm afraid you'll dream of green yourself again, and you'll blame me for being crazy when you wake up."
The two were vying to be the other's licking dog here, Gu Fei called, and the two flirting notes hurriedly became serious for a second.
Jin-wook answers the phone and chats with him for a few minutes.
"What's the matter?" Shang Yang heard that they were still talking about the case of falling from a building, so he didn't interrupt, and only asked after Jin Xu hung up the phone.
"Gu Fei and I were thinking at the same frequency. He lied to the nurse Hu Qingman that Chen Jing was not rescued, and she was gone." Jin Xu was very satisfied with Gu Fei's performance, and said, "Hu Qingman really retracted his confession. He insisted that I killed Chen Jing, and said that she witnessed the incident with her own eyes."