It had small beginnings, as most things do.
Far from civilization, there was a forest. Further still into its depths, many great trees stood tall enough to pierce the sky, their canopies so dense that it was always dark as night beneath their boughs. What was more, a thick mist hung over the forest in perpetuity, as though to conceal its very existence. For as long as anyone could remember, people had spoken its name with fear: The Forest of No Return. No matter how sharp their sense of direction, there was no hope of escape for anyone who lost their way inside. On rare occasions, some daring soul who had heard the rumors would venture in, but there were no stories of anyone returning alive. Now, none dared to go anywhere near the place.
Secreted away at the center of the forest, there stood a tower built from glittering black stone. Despite being covered in moss and vines, an air of grandeur hung about it. Six great black pillars carved with complex designs loomed around it, though three of them were half in ruins. It was clear that a long time had passed since their collapse. The remaining pillars were also badly damaged, with cracks spidering across every surface that made it look as though they might crumble at any moment. This long-forgotten place was a temple, known by the people of ancient times as the gateway to the land of the dead.
Near its entrance lay, inexplicably, a sleeping baby wrapped in a bloodstained cloth. Beside it, a man lay slumped against one of the pillars, splattered head to toe with blood. Even in death, he still clung fast to the bladeless hilt of a sword.
Beasts ruled in the forest, and the sweet-smelling infant and the foul-smelling human corpse were easy pickings. By all rights, they should have been devoured already. But not only did no beasts appear, not even the chirping of birds could be heard amongst the trees. The area immediately surrounding the temple was silent as the grave. It was as though every nearby creature had fallen into slumber. At best, one could describe it as tranquil; at worst, the silence that enveloped the place was downright eerie.
Into the unearthly atmosphere hanging over the temple, there entered three shadows that shimmered like the air above a flame. They stopped abruptly, their gazes falling upon the man and the infant.
We came to see what had lost its way here—and if it isn’t humans, one of the shadows whispered. The tongue it spoke was foreign to any mortal ears. They did well to make it to the temple. It seems the babe still lives, though the man is dead. His soul’s vessel is already empty. It sounded bored as it inspected the child and the corpse in turn.
A babe... whispered the second shadow. Such a vulnerable soul will do little to sate my hunger. But it shouldn’t put up any resistance if we harvest it now.
The second shadow raised an uncanny, shimmering scythe it hadn’t held a moment ago, and without a flicker of hesitation, swung it down towards the child’s heart. Suddenly, the third shadow threw out a hand into the scythe’s path to deflect it. An instant before making contact, the scythe dissolved as quickly as it had appeared.
Why are you interfering? Do you wish to devour it yourself? asked the second shadow.
No, it’s not that. I wish but to observe it for a time, said the third.
Observe it? Old habits die hard.
I don’t know what you find so interesting about them, added the first shadow. But no matter. Do as you please.
With this, the first two shadows melted away together into the earth, leaving the third one alone. It approached the infant in silence, lifting the babe up into its shimmering arms. As though in anticipation of this very moment, the child’s eyes blinked open, and the shadow saw itself reflected in their clear, ebony depths. For a little while, the infant stared curiously at the shadow, then smiled.
Yes, this will be well worth observing, whispered the shadow to no one in particular, looking from the baby’s smiling face to the scarlet jewel that hung around its neck.
Ten years had passed since the shadow had taken the child into its keeping.
The girl lived in the temple, its dark, gleaming walls the only home she knew. Though the shadow that called itself Z technically resided there alongside her, it did not eat, nor did it sleep, or play with her. It would not. Z hardly spared the girl the time of day outside of its observation of her.
And right now, it was observation time.
Z and the girl traded blow for blow in the training ground outside the temple. The girl wielded a blade that shone pure white against Z’s great scythe, black as ebony and shrouded in a dark mist. Her strikes were easily knocked aside over and over again by the scythe, and after struggling for a time the girl leapt back, putting distance between herself and Z. She wiped the sweat that dripped from her brow with her sleeve, her shoulders rising and falling with her heaving breaths.
Thirty minutes had passed since observation began.
The girl was reaching the limit of her endurance, and she knew it. Z rested the scythe on its shoulder.
What is the matter? Are you tired already? it asked, its tone flat with disinterest. This wasn’t meant as sarcasm—Z was never sarcastic. It simply stated what it observed of the girl’s condition, nothing more.
Even so...
The girl took a deep breath and kicked hard off the ground. The landscape streaked past her in a blur as she closed in on Z, sweeping her sword up towards its side. But the white blade never met its mark—despite the fact that she’d put all her strength behind the blow, the scythe flicked up and batted her blade away, driving the sword’s tip into the ground.
Good. Your Swift Step was acceptable, but your movements are too direct, murmured Z, more to itself than to the girl. With incredible speed, it flung a dagger at the girl. She seized the sword from the ground and shielded herself with it. As the fierce blow struck the blade, the air contracted into a gale and, unable to withstand it, she was flung up into the sky.
Gah!
A jolt of numbness wracked her senses, and for a second, she began to black out. She quickly bit down on her tongue and just managed to hold on to consciousness as she spun through the air and plummeted back to the ground.
The girl slowly brought her breathing under control, roughly wiping away the blood that trickled from the corner of her mouth. She realized then that both of her arms were twitching violently.
I’m fine, she insisted. I can... I can still fight. She gripped her sword tight to control her trembling as she swung it up in a wide arc above her head in a protective stance. Z had taught her this technique. From this stance, she could react to attacks coming from any direction.
Are you ready? asked Z, swinging its scythe as effortlessly as it would a twig. The girl did not reply, only gripped the hilt of her sword tighter still.
It appears you are. As Z spoke again, the girl felt an uneasy sensation creep down her spine. She flung herself to the side, avoiding by a hair’s breadth the blow that fell a split second later where she had stood. In response, she moved behind Z, raising her sword—then she stopped. She had no choice but to stop. Leaving an afterimage in its place, Z in turn had come around behind, and was now resting the tip of its scythe against her throat. Cold sweat dripped from her forehead.
Your ability to keep up with my movement has greatly improved. We will leave things here for today, said Z, and melted away into the ground. The oppressive aura that had hung around them dispersed immediately, and the temple returned to its usual silence.
The tension leaving her shoulders, the girl looked towards the ground into which Z had vanished. Thank you, she said.
The girl’s days went like this, every day, without fail:
She had lessons where Z taught her about a great many things: the state of the continent, language, military strategy, magic, swordcraft, and martial arts, to name a few. Occasionally, when they went into the forest together, it even taught her how to hunt and prepare wild game. Z called all of this observation, but to her it was education and training.
One day, shortly after said observation had begun in earnest, Z taught her that she was an animal called a human, creatures that fell under the complicated category that Z called group three intelligent life forms. The girl, curious about what kind of creature Z was given how different its form was from her own, then asked it exactly that. What are you, then?
Me? What indeed... The humans of this world might consider me a god of death, it replied. The girl’s eyes shone in amazement. Amongst the many books Z had given her, there had been one about death gods. It described them as terrifying entities that harvested human souls indiscriminately. The book concluded with the line:
All creatures are equal in death.
She asked if Z would harvest her soul too.
That is a misconception, it said. We can only harvest a soul when sentience has not yet emerged or in the moments following death. You are already sentient; therefore, I cannot harvest your soul.
Now that she thought about it, the illustrations of gods of death in the book had depicted a skeleton cloaked in rags. She compared this to Z—the shadow shimmering before her like the air over a flame. If she had to choose between trusting Z or the book, she would, of course, trust Z. And that meant, she concluded, that sometimes books contained lies.
On another day, sometime later, they had just finished sword training when the girl asked Z a question. Why was Z teaching her swordcraft and martial arts—skills for killing humans? Humans, Z answered, were cruel creatures that loved violence, killing each other as much for sport as for survival. But it felt like something was missing from that answer; she herself was the only human at the temple, so why did she need to train to kill people who weren’t there?
You will understand soon enough, was the only answer Z had reluctantly given her. Z’s physical form was essentially a corporeal shadow, making it impossible for her to decipher what, if any, sort of emotion lay behind its answer.
And yet, inexplicably, the girl felt sure that at that moment, Z had ever so slightly smiled.