Have a meal?
Xiang Weiding, who was secretly annoyed that he didn't get a kiss last night, looked at Zhang Jianan's lips. As soon as I thought about it, I immediately felt dry mouth and tongue, and now I just want to "eat" it.
"Hurry up and eat!" Seeing that Xiang Weiding still didn't respond, Zhang Jianan raised his head to look at him, and what he received was a strange gaze, and even someone as late as Zhang Jianan could feel what was contained in that gaze.
Seeing Zhang Jian'an frowning slightly, Xiang Weiding knew that he was being too explicit, so he quickly restrained himself, picked up his chopsticks, and said, "Well, let's eat."
Now the two of them were finally quiet and had a serious meal.
After dinner, in order to avoid Xiang Weiding's scorching gaze, Zhang Jian'an simply didn't stay in the living room for a moment, and went back to his room directly. However, after a while, Xiang Weiding knocked on the door and came in.
"Weiding, is there anything else?" Zhang Jian'an was a little irritable in his heart, so his tone was a little impatient.
"I just came in to see you." Xiang Weiding avoided Zhang Jianan's obviously driving words and sat beside him.
Before yesterday. It is not uncommon for two people to be together, but Zhang Jianan regards it as a normal thing. It is normal to have physical contact with people around him in life, but today Xiang Weiding sat next to him, and Zhang Jianan Faintly felt that there was a little heat in the air, and I was sensitive.
"If you're fine, go to bed earlier!" Zhang Jian'an twitched the corners of his mouth, hoping that Xiang Weiding would be obedient.
"It's too early, I can't sleep." Xiang Weiding looked at Zhang Jian'an with his eyes wide open.
Now Zhang Jianan was so distressed that he wanted to hit the wall. Why did the child grow up a lot after one night? Some thoughts became so blatant, and he was not as obedient as before. Zhang Jianan really realized that drinking was a mistake. , If you didn’t drink last night, it’s impossible for such a thing to happen. If others are sober, you can’t be like Weiding. It is also obviously holding on.
But Zhang Jian'an's persistent persistence is even more unwilling to change. He doesn't know whether his persistence is right, but judging from the experience of Zhang Jian'an's two generations and various social reports, for the sake of Weiding, and for the sake of For himself, he insisted on not crossing certain taboos.
Last night was a mistake. Zhang Jianan wanted to expose it, and hoped that Xiang Weiding could... let it go.
"Weiding, I drank alcohol last night." Zhang Jianan stated the fact in a flat tone.
Knowing what Zhang Jianan wanted to express, he was alert to Weiding, but his face remained calm, and he said, "Well, I also drank a small amount of wine last night."
"So... we all drank some wine last night, but... nothing happened." Zhang Jianan didn't look at Weiding when he said this, but looked down at his hand.
"Yes, we all drank, but I'm not drunk, I'm very sober, and you're sober afterward." Xiang Weiding's tone became tough, and he didn't let go. One step is not a clear sky, but an abyss.
"Weiding, we were all drunk last night." Zhang Jianan looked at Xiang Weiding with a firm expression. The tone is serious.
"Hehe, An, you know, I'm not drunk, you're awake too." Xiang Weiding and Zhang Jianan looked at each other for a few seconds, each of them refused to give in, and without Zhang Jianan's compromise, Xiang Weiding said helplessly and slightly Smile lightly.
Seeing the forced smile on Xiang Weiding's face, Zhang Jianan couldn't bear it, but still said: "I thought you were drunk, and I fell asleep, nothing happened last night."
"An, you can't do this." Xiang Weiding grabbed Zhang Jian'an's hand with a slightly hurt expression.
"I should be the one who said this to you." Zhang Jianan turned his head away, afraid that his heart would soften.
Xiang Weiding put Zhang Jianan's hand on his heart, and said quietly: "I... just hope you can see my heart, I really love you, you don't need to accept me now, I just hope you can face me , you can give me a chance."
Zhang Jian'an almost said something like "you're still young", but the people around him were no longer children, and he really knew Xiang Weiding's persistence, but... all of this was wrong .
"Weiding, we are family, a family for life. You are just confused for a while now, and you will be fine after a while." Zhang Jianan repeated what he said countless times and smiled wryly.
"An. I'm not a child anymore, so don't always use such words to prevaricate me." Xiang Weiding raised his hand to touch Zhang Jian'an's face, and was quickly dodged. He said sadly: "You know I'm not confused. , I really love you, I don't want to leave you, and... because it's you, that's why I did what I did last night, as long as it's you, I'll be happy in whatever you ask me to do. "
"Alas..." Xiang Weiding's hand was tightly clenched. Hearing what happened last night, that scene immediately appeared in front of his eyes. Zhang Jianan felt a little complicated, angry, pity, annoyed and regretful. To be able to do that kind of thing when he was drunk, to pity my handsome son for doing such...things for him, to be annoyed that I had an orgasm while half asleep and half awake, and to regret that I shouldn't have drunk last night, then such a thing would not have happened .
"Weiding, you are my son, you are my family, and we are all men, do you understand?" Zhang Jianan looked at Xiang Weiding.
"Ann. We are not related by blood, and I have never called you father. What's wrong with being a man? I just fell in love with you, and I only love you." Xiang Weiding's expression and tone were firm.
Zhang Jianan shook his head, took Xiang Weiding's hand, and said slowly: "Weiding, I just want to be a family with you. This is the strongest and most stable relationship. Don't be willful."
Xiang Weiding was silent for a long time, and when Zhang Jianan thought that Xiang Weiding didn't intend to speak anymore, he suddenly spoke again. Said: "Being a family is fine, but you don't have to do anything, as long as we are together."
Zhang Jianan raised his eyebrows. He didn't believe that Xiang Weiding, who had persisted for several years, would let go so easily, and asked carefully: "We are together? What does this mean? We are family members, and we would be together. However, other than me, You should also have a life partner by your side."
"An, I've already regressed, so don't push me anymore, okay?" Although he knew that Zhang Jian'an would not get what he wanted so easily, Xiang Weiding couldn't help feeling sad, and said, "The two of us, don't you There are others, and I will not have others, it doesn't matter if you are a family member, or just depend on each other, as long as I see you every day."
"Weiding, you know what I mean by family. What I want is for you to have another life." Zhang Jianan couldn't take a step back.
"Okay, An, let's not talk about this issue for now." Xiang Weiding knew that talking about it would make Zhang Jian'an unhappy, so he was going to end this topic. After so many years, he was not afraid to wait another two years, step by step Come on slowly!
"Hey, Wei Ding, why are you doing this?" Zhang Jian'an sighed.
Xiang Weiding looked deeply at Zhang Jianan, and said without hesitation, "Because of you."
Zhang Jianan was speechless, he couldn't persuade Xiang Weiding before, and now he couldn't persuade Xiang Weiding, who had become a man.
Sleeping at night, lying on the bed in a dark room, Zhang Jian'an couldn't help but think of the conversation with Xiang Weiding, the firmness on Xiang Weiding's handsome face, the persistence in his words, and those full of words. The word "love" for affection. My heart is in a mess.
No blood relationship? It's just that I fell in love... and that almost self-righteous rhetorical question, so what's wrong with being a man?
Hehe, alas... normal lovers are a man and a woman, what's wrong with being a man? If two men become gay, Zhang Jian'an doesn't know where Xiang Weiding's confidence comes from, and where does he take it for granted? It seems that China is not open enough to tolerate homosexuality, right? Especially... between family members.
Opening his eyes, he thought of Xiang Weiding's resolute and profound face, and smiled silently. As a parent, Zhang Jianan was very pleased with the child's growth. Excellent, indeed worthy of joy, if there is no tough attitude that is a hundred times more difficult to deal with than before, it would be even better.
Thinking of the sadness in Xiang Weiding's eyes for a while, Zhang Jian'an felt that he should smooth it out, but for a while, thinking of Xiang Weiding's excellence, Zhang Jian'an hoped that Xiang Weiding would always live a good life, with everything going smoothly and without twists and turns.
In fact, thinking about it seriously, Zhang Jianan himself has no aversion to Xiang Weiding's suggestion. The two have lived together for so many years, they have already melted into each other's life, and they are used to each other in life. There is nothing wrong with being old.
Zhang Jian'an could only sigh softly for asking too much from Weiding.
Since what happened that night, although there were conversations afterwards, there was no result. When the two of them got along recently, Xiang Weiding always behaved much more boldly and presumptuously than before.
For example, always addressing "An", for example, more thoughtful service during meals, for example, when Zhang Jianan came in suddenly when he was returning to his room to watch Internet TV, and then watched TV with Zhang Jianan from behind, and those occasional touches, More enthusiastic eyes to follow. All this has made Zhang Jianan nervous and helpless recently. He always feels that Xiang Weiding is really different now, and his behavior is much stronger, which made Zhang Jianan really not used to it for a while.
If Zhang Jianan is not a man, but a girl who has just begun to fall in love, she must be captured by the handsome Xiang Weiding who treats her affectionately and gently. However, Zhang Jianan is an old man in his 40s, and Xiang Weiding tried his best to show it Zhang Jianan's feelings made Zhang Jian'an flustered at first, and he was also a little moved, but...he is a normal person after all, an ordinary person.
An ordinary normal person has no intention of accepting things that are not recognized by society. Not to mention resentment, but just getting used to living in obedience.
After staying at home with Xiang Weiding for a while, Zhang Jianan really couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't stand facing Xiang Weiding's affectionate gaze every day, and couldn't bear to accept Xiang Weiding's meticulous care every day. He was so busy and still had time at home. Guarding him, Zhang Jian'an couldn't help feeling sorry for what he had done to Weiding, couldn't help but be moved, but because of this, he couldn't stand it even more.