There I was, standing in the hallway where I’d just witnessed my brother and his boyfriend having a tryst. After reflecting on my situation as a princess, I tilted the tip of my closed fan against my forehead and sighed.
My future…it looks so bleak!
Hey, you’d want to go all melodramatic heroine, too. Though I’m technically not the heroine… In the world of BL, I’m just a side character!
Then the air stirred, and a certain someone stepped in front of Lord Sil. “You…you say you will never give us your blessing?”
Whoa there! Big Brother has muscled into the conversation!
My brother always got uptight when it came to the love of his life. Though, since he was a perfect model of a man by nature, his devotees adored this more human side of him.
My blessing… My blessing, eh?
Well, they were certainly blessed in the looks department. Their hotness just tickled my fujoshi heart to death.
The only reason I had such a negative bias toward them as a couple was because of the heir problem, nothing else. If only I could be sure my brother would bear his own child in the future.
Maybe I should just ask him right now?
After all, at present, the only reason I am so sure of the future is because I have knowledge of what happened in the books. But that was just my speculation. It wasn’t set in stone.
Also, I’d never had a deep conversation like this with Sirius before because our relationship was so delicate. I didn’t even have an in! But luckily, now that I had both my brother and Lord Sil together, I could ask them their opinion on the matter.
I also wanted to know how Lord Sil felt about it. In the novels, Sister-dearest and Lord Sil were on speaking terms. But me? Well, my brother feels pretty protective of Lord Sil, so I’ve never been able to get him alone.
“Dear Brother, you and Lord Sil intend to marry, no?”
That’s how everything had been written. The make-out scene I’d just witnessed was either born of marriage jitters or was a sneak attack to jump Lord Sil. They were usually all over each other in the court. So he wanted to spice things up a little and strengthen their bond with some surprise nookie.
“Yes. I do,” my brother answered without hesitation.
“But you two are both men,” I said, firing the first shot. “How do you intend to produce an heir?”
The color drained from Lord Sil’s face. Meanwhile, my brother glared at me.
Y-you don’t scare me, okay?! I opened my fan and shut out my brother’s eyes. Nothing penetrates my death ray shield!
“Are you suggesting that I seek out a woman for marriage?”
“Whether you marry her or not is of no concern to me. I am merely considering the matter of your child. Lord Sil is incapable of giving birth, is he not? And yes, Lord Sil…I wish to hear your thoughts on the matter as well.”
“W-well, I…think…”
Well, well, well. So it seems like even the overly optimistic Sil has at least given some thought to kids. But I guess his heart just hasn’t caught up with his head yet.
Ohhh… My burning fangirl feelings from my past life are coming back to me! Oh, Lord Sil! You poor, sweet boy! I know! I know how you feel! Please believe me when I say I don’t hate you for this at all! If anything, it’s the opposite!
“The one I love is Sil, no other,” Sirius declared.
Thank you, dear Brother. I was about to be swayed by Lord Sil, but now you’ve snapped me back to my senses!
How! Ever! That isn’t exactly the issue here! You know it isn’t, and you’re avoiding it, aren’t you?
“You would never understand; you don’t love anyone.”
……
Speech…less. I was stunned speechless.
So this was what it felt like to boil with rage. Setting aside that Sirius was happily in love with Lord Sil and had his head in the clouds…of all the things to say…
I don’t love anyone? He meant romantically, right? That I don’t have a boyfriend. Well, of course I don’t? Neither as Maki nor as Octavia have I ever loved anyone deeply.
When I was Maki, I went to an all-girls school, not coed. I was pretty preoccupied with The Noble King anyway, and I thought I still had my whole life ahead of me, so I didn’t bother with 3D romances.
Which is why things are different now that I’ve been reincarnated!
This time around, I want to marry someone I love. But Octavia was only a convenient plot device, and this is a BL world besides, and, real talk, the only romance happening around here is man-on-man! Heterosexual couples are the minority in these parts! My first love here as Octavia was my personal bodyguard, but he wound up hooking up with a man, too! I mean, even if I did fall in love with someone, and even if the feeling were mutual, I wouldn’t be allowed to marry him unless it was beneficial for the kingdom, because I’m frickin’ Octavia!
I felt something snap inside of me.
“Oh, but I do have a beloved.”
“What?” my brother asked. You’ve never mentioned him before, his eyes added.
Well, of course I never mentioned him before. Because he doesn’t exist! It was a bald-faced lie! I was caught in the moment!
However… Being caught up in the moment can yield terrifying results at times. And the moment I was caught in refused to let me go.
“Why, yes. And I shall introduce my beloved to you and Lord Sil quite soon.”
Before I realized it, I was running my mouth. I scare myself sometimes.
Shut up. You don’t have a beloved. You don’t even know any guys who would play along and pretend to be your boyfriend. You’re in deep shit now.
Should I just apologize and say it was all a lie? Apologize? To my big brother?