“If it’s with you, Momota-kun, I’m okay. I w-want to go all the way.”
“Orihara-san...”
“...Um, first, I want to apologize. If I’m not very good, I’m sorry. I’ve also...kind of been preparing because it’s my first time.”
“That’s my line... I’ll do my very best, but I’m sorry if I’m no good...”
“O-Okay...”
“...” We gradually ran out of things to say and sat there for a few seconds in silence with only our gazes intertwined. Then we brought our lips together...gently at first, gradually becoming more insatiable. I leaned in closer, placed my hand on her back, and embraced her. My girlfriend was twelve years older than me, but as I embraced her like this, she was so small she easily fit in my arms. I couldn’t help but love her. Then, I ever so gently pushed her down on the bed.
“M-Momota-kun...” As Orihara-san lay there on the bed, she looked up at me with moist, anxious eyes. However, she didn’t look afraid. Rather, it was like she was looking forward to it. The woman I love was lying down and waiting for me to make a move, and the exciting feeling of conquest threatened to melt my brain.
I was tempted to just give in to my instincts and make love to her, but what little reason I had left was desperately looking for the right opportunity and the right timing to put one of those on; according to the great teachings of my predecessors, taking time to wrap it up will just kill the mood, so a man has to put it on smoothly while keeping a good mood going.
I’ve got this. I’ve practiced plenty of times at home. After I’ve had a little more fun, I’ll reach naturally for what’s by the pillow, and—
“Huh?”
I couldn’t help but let out a weird voice, and the arousal that was trying to eat away at my senses disappeared as if it had been showered with cold water.
Gone... They’re gone!
The thing that a love hotel always has prepared, the contraceptives, weren’t there. Next to the pillow was the heart-shaped plate that they were clearly supposed to be placed in, but those essential items weren’t there. The only thing that was there was a rectangular piece of paper that was probably for the sake of presentation, but the most important things were missing.
“M-Momota-kun, what’s wrong?” Orihara-san asked, probably because I was so shaken up that it was showing in my attitude.
“Um, well... Th-There aren’t any condoms,” I said, not knowing any way around it except to just explain the situation.
“Huh? No way...” Orihara-san got up with a surprised look and checked by the pillow. “Y-You’re right.”
“...” Ah, damn it. What the hell is this? Why did an accident have to happen at the critical moment? I should have made sure they were there in the beginning. I feel like they were there when I glanced over there before, but...I guess I just mistook that piece of paper for condoms.
“I-I wonder why? Did the hotel staff forget them?”
“...I don’t know.” This sucks. The mood’s already dead. Since I was called out so suddenly, I didn’t bring any condoms with me. I mean, I had no idea that things would turn out this way.
“...O-Orihara-san, do you have any?” I said, feeling like I’d die from shame. As a man, I felt so pathetic still trying to get the ball rolling even though I’d failed to make the bare minimum preparations.
“Sorry. I didn’t bring any either...” Orihara-san said apologetically.
“I see...”
What am I going to do? What should I do? There’s no way I could do something as irresponsible as doing it without a condom. However, getting condoms now would just be super awkward. Should I hurry and go buy some? Or maybe call the hotel staff and have them bring some? Either way...it would definitely deflate the atmosphere. This is supposed to be our first time, that special once in a life moment for the both of us. Yet things are such a mess because of my ineptitude...
“...Momota-kun.” As I was tormented by my feelings of shame and became hopelessly depressed, Orihara-san said something to me that I’d never expected. “It’s okay if you don’t wear one...”
For a moment, I had no idea what I was hearing. “I don’t have to?” What that... What that means is...
Perhaps it showed on my face how dumbstruck I was, because Orihara-san repeated herself and said, “It’s all right...if you don’t wear one. We can’t help it if there aren’t any...”
“But then...”
“I-It’s probably okay. I don’t think I’ll get pregnant that easily, and...today is probably a safe day for me,” she said with a forced smile. “Besides, on the off chance I do get pregnant, I’ll be fine.” She continued to pile on words like she was coming up with excuses.
“...”
“H-Ha ha ha. If I were a high school student, there would probably be an uproar if I got pregnant, but...I’m already twenty-seven, you know? I’m at the age where it totally wouldn’t be a problem if I had a child. I mean, a lot of my old classmates are having kids...” Orihara-san gradually started to speak faster. “I-I’ve got a lot of money saved up, so I’d be fine on my own for a while! I wouldn’t ask you to quit high school and get a job! Also, my company offers maternity and childcare leave.”
“...”
“Um, so...I-I’ll be all right! I won’t get pregnant that easily.”
“...Orihara-san.”
Maybe it would have been better if I hadn’t noticed. Perhaps it would have been better if I had taken her words at face value and given myself over to my growing carnal desires. She was asking me to be intimate with her without any protection, and maybe it would have been fine if I had indulged in that sheer pleasure without hesitation.