Side Story: Nack’s Road to Llinger
I realize it has been a long time since I last wrote.
Firstly, I ask only that you read this letter to its end. This is the last piece of correspondence that I will ever send to you as your son. Once you have finished, you can do as you like with the letter. Burn it, tear it to pieces—you are free to do as you will.
I would like to thank you for enrolling me at Luqvist. Whatever your reasons for doing so may have been, it is thanks to you, my parents, that I have come this far. In truth, I cannot put into words the extent to which I have cursed the two of you, but I cursed myself far more for being so very powerless. Nevertheless, I got to where I am because you raised me. So even if your love was but a fleeting, temporary thing, all the same, it gave me life.
For that, you have my gratitude.
Now, as for the intentions of this letter.
I am renouncing my rank as one of the nobility.
I am renouncing the Agares family name and wish now to live my life by the name of Nack, and Nack alone. Though you may read this and assume that I have gone insane, I assure you that I have not. From the very beginning, I lived my life at Luqvist with a fierce desperation, holding in my heart vague hopes of a life far from all of you.
Every single day at Luqvist was, if I am being honest, a most horrible experience. I endured each and every day unable to ask for help, and it was such torment that one might easily call those days my own personal hell.
And yet, it was thanks to those awful days that I was led to a number of precious encounters. One of those encounters was with another healer.
I imagine you chuckling derisively to read such words.
But the truth remains the same—that encounter changed the course of my life. You looked down upon healing, and you called it useless, but I met a healer of incredible strength, and one who only continues to grow more powerful. In him, I found someone to look up to. He sits at such heights that as I am now, I cannot reach him.
Meeting that healer marked the first time I ever wanted to become stronger. For so long, I used my own misfortunes as an excuse to do absolutely nothing, but now I have seen someone whose footsteps I can follow. That healer helped me to stand on my own two feet, and now I want to be just like him.
No more excuses. No more complaints. I have finally found something I want to achieve with such passion that I will stake my life for it.
And that is why I renounce my noble rank. That is why I will go on as simply Nack.
If you want to laugh at me, then go ahead and laugh. I will continue on regardless.
Please forget that I ever existed.
Goodbye Father, goodbye Mother.
Thank you for the twelve years in which you raised me.
And if such a thing is possible, send my sister my regards, and tell her I said goodbye.